My Journey In The Time Machine

In class twelfth and first year of engineering, I went through a very good habit of daily diary entry. But I lost touch with it as I moved into 2007; for those who don't know, diary entry is a very effective stress buster and works better than a pain killer or sleeping pills: according to many. (Though, I never tried any of the two:P).

This Diwali while cleaning my room I went through my diaries of 2005 and 2006. And it felt like I was living in that moment once again. Though when I was writing those pages; it was just because I had no one to share my self with so I found a friend in my diary. But while going through them once again; it felt as if Anurag Kaushik of that time was conveying some messages and lessons to the Anurag Kaushik of today. He was insisting me to stop making some mistakes which were a common part of me. At the same he was asking me to care more about people who meant something for me.

Here are some not-so-personal quotes from Anurag Kaushik of 2005 followed by the one of 2006.

2005:
# Think about options other than silly “engineering”. (Yes, I hated it even before I entered into it.):P

# “Asked Mr. ***** to control his tongue and actions, what a fattu he is, complete sitti-pitti-gum”

# “Attended the most boring B’day party of my life, who plays antakshari when you have enough space and music system handy??”

# “***** offered to dance with me, what a moment.” (I don’t remember this incident now, but its written in it.)

# “Took the bike out for first time, my first encounter with traffic police, must say I am smart enough for them”

# “Hot and humid class at PLASMA, I am leaving this place if there is another power cut.” (I didn’t leave it till it was farewell; they said you must leave now:D)

# “Have to announce schedule for Football selections tomorrow” (though I never played football in my life at school; except a few exceptions :P).

# “Clubs’ installation ceremonies are most boring place to be; why do you have to install a club every year? We don’t pay 50 rupees anyway; most of us are here for refreshments”.

# “Stood behind 3 ministers and Jaipur MP for 2 and half hours, and at the end you get no food, SPS, Airport sucks, at least for today.”

# “City looks wonderful from Nahargarh fort, what a view.”

# “****** Sir to take chemistry class; and a REAL class of me, now I am gone. He will eat me alive.”

# “Fought with the service center man, he didn’t return me my bike on time. He had to serve me first at the end.”

# “Saw a sad break up scene in front of my eyes, man…once in a lifetime scene. Sometimes I feel girls are too mean when they say good bye to their guy. They can learn to control their tongue.”

# “A drunkard slammed his car into the parking of tuition; luckily no one was there except vehicles.”

P.S.: No grudges against anyone now. I was a school going student at that time. :P

2006:
# “External came from Kota, a very good lady, I got sample no.17 Ba(NO3)2

# “Got a-kind-of-farewell from school, met all teachers while receiving admit cards. Why only my batch gets no official farewell.”

# “Vigorous revision session at PLASMA; I left it; was making me more nervous.”

# “Being an adult makes you feel like being something.”

# “Farewell at PLASMA; I am sure gonna miss this place forever.”

# “Distributed Fool’s day party cards to four.” (what a day it was):D

# “JEE-2006 at ICG; what a waste of time; wish I could bunk it like another friend of mine.” (though I didn’t do that bad:P)

# “Everything seemed to be happening for the last time, for some strange reasons.” (the more mature me)

# “What an adjustment, 13 people in an Auto-cum-tempo, I sat in the door. That too when you are passing through jungle, this place needs better transport.”

# “Shantikunj is such a peaceful place, the self help makes you feel like home, had a semi-quarrel within us but the positive energy was notable.”

# “We tried playing T&D in bus but elders stopped us when we disturbed driver while he was driving, then came to the boring antakshari; HELL; I had to turn ON the stereo; dance feels better.”

# “I today realized that I had excellent scope in photography.” (I took some really rare snaps)

# “Lunch at ‘moolchand’ on way to Delhi, couldn’t believe this place had such a sophisticated restaurant.”

# “Visited SKIT and Gyan Vihar, had to walk through the Jagatpura area; GV felt like Hogwarts.” (Biggest illusion :X)

# “Throat infection, I sound like a frog. Silence is gold for now.”

# “Well am I not good enough in making friends??, I can never get bored. When there are people around.” (Ya good in making new, bad in maintaining them.):P

# “GVSET finalized, date confirmed as August 7th ’06.”

# “If this was an officers’ party I better would not be one, they were dying for food as if there was nothing at their homes.”

# “Holiday at GVSET because of campus placement drive for seniors” (I didn’t see this day yet for our placements);)

# “Seniors stopped me at thadi, there was some strike sort of, I finally managed to run away. They took a few to University campus for show of strength”. (agru I hope you’ll never forget this day):D

# “It feels different to be an Ex-student, I felt like an alien in the place where i spent so much time. No duties, no responsibilities, come as guest and leave like one.” (After Subodh winter carnival)

# “New Year celebration with school friends; nice gathering. Some people always remain dear no matter how far time takes you from them.”

P.S.:- After flowing through the past in the time machine of diaries I am planning to start it all again from 2010.:)

My Relationship Status [CENSORED AND UPDATED]

One day while I was surfing on a social networking site I received a friend request from a girl of my college. She was in a different unit and was one year junior to me. After initial rounds of formal chatting; we started discussing our relationship status. To my surprise she was deeply shocked when I told her that I was “single”. She thought I was trying to flirt. She later confirmed this as well. When I asked her why she thought that I was lying; she replied, “how can a third year engineering student with an “English-CBSE” kind of background be single? (These are not my views; she believed so). After a long debate I managed to make her accept as true that I was “actually” “single”. It’s been a long time since then but that chat has stunned me. Why is it expected of everyone to be “committed” on “time”?? After all, it was not for the first time that I was asked this question of why I was still single. Even kids of junior school levels have started dating now days!!

And then people reach to a conclusion: there must be some problem with this guy. He must be really immature or girls must not find him attractive at all. I don’t think either of the above is true though. Earlier even I used to think that I have no quality which a girl looks for in his “guy”. But this hypothesis of mine was rejected by my friends (girls) at several stages of life. Coming back to topic; I was told that my cool and calm nature was something to look for. The way I remain cool and calm, having nothing to do with the rest of the world, my self-dependency, not running after other girls like the rest of the boys do, my behavior and attitude towards friends; but I was also told that I must speak and express a little more than what I’ve been up to.

As life moved on, I decided that I won’t fall into a relationship until I was “mentally prepared” for it. It’s because of this reason that I am still single. Reason behind writing this post is that I am nearly tired of answering the question of being “single” till now. (most people don’t believe me when I say that I am single!!) The answer is natural and straightforward, “I am not yet geared up mentally for a committed relationship”. That’s it. And that I haven’t yet met my “princess”. I mean I liked a few, but most of them were already committed and hence I never got an opportunity of opening my cards properly. It has most of the times been a GAME OVER even before it could start.

And I am in no hurry. If it is written in my destiny, it’ll happen anyway. And if it’s not there; then there is no point going against the will of almighty. And all those people who monitor me regularly; know that I have never tried to fall into it. Because love is not forceful affair which can be controlled, rather it is like a cool breeze of faith which happens to flow at the most unexpected times and without any motive. And with what I have seen most of the times, with a most unexpected person around you. There has to be a “practical” path for such a journey and one can’t move only on the basis of pure and flowing emotions when it comes to making the “most important and crucial decision of your life”. I hope that air is clean now and that there is no confusion in your minds. :) Cheers!!