F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Promoting this blog has been quite a task for me, sending invitations to friend, door to door marketing, an orkut community…and what you get is 9 odd members. And not a single follower, but am not disappointed at all. At least I got this much. And I hope it’ll improve if my work here is creative and interesting. Well leaving all this aside I would like to share my three year journey of engineering with you guys (I hope it’ll also work as an air cleaner for many of my friends who have always kept me under scrutiny for being mysterious about my past).
Actually the thing is that I am a peaceful and quiet person by nature and that makes me a silent observer, this is why I generally have a broader knowledge of things going around me as compared to other people. And people are shocked as they react “how did you know this, I didn’t tell it to anyone??:P ” So starting my journey, let me take you to a sunny day in the summer of 2006, its June and it’s pretty hot. I’ve got admission into a very good looking college in Jaipur’s south east. One of the main reasons why I went for this college was its campus and infrastructure. It was huge as compared to the ones I visited earlier. At that time the only thing which I knew about engineering was that “it is very simple course, everyone can finish engineering very easily by just a study of one night before the exam”. Earlier I didn’t believe it, but when every senior and pass outs said this, I had to buy it. (I later realized that they meant it for REVISION and REMAINING TOPICS and CHAPTERS):P
Carrying on with the story, admission had been done; I also joined an extra class for C language to get an edge over others from the very beginning. The intensity was high and flowing. I was very excited about going to the college, that too when decisions were mine. I wanted to start my journey in style. Well first day of college was promising, new faces all around, new faculty, new campus, and new intensity. Days went on and so went away the intensity. I was cheated…this wasn’t a college, it was stricter than a missionary school and the campus which was shining outside was shining inside too but we were being “oriented” to be more serious about life. Every speaker in the orientation sessions was speaking of heavy words like Goal Setting and career related boring lectures. I hated it all at that time.(but they were all for our good) But I didn’t want to be serious at all, there was hell lot of time left for that. Life moved on, first year went on very smoothly there were successes, failures and there were “friends”, I am putting this on record, and I still believe that whatever I was at that time(good or bad whatever), few people (not all) were proud to associate themselves with me.(though things changed drastically later on). It was a proud moment. In fact few things went on so smoothly that all this stuff got into my head. And this was the time when OVERCONFIDENCE started building inside me. Those were very magical moments; I thought that I could do everything. I denied the existence of God. There were faulty egos as well. In short there was everything that would spoil one’s thinking and decision making. (I am not going deep into it). And so it happened, and what timings! To add to the miseries there were a few crushes at just the wrong time. I wonder even today, as to what happened to me at that time. I thought that every one was under my shoes. Life seemed so simple, a cakewalk.
And then, the right thing happened. My negative karma got me. And I was punished at just the right time for my wrong deeds, overconfidence and egos. It felt like the end of the world and life. Everything was over in just a few seconds. All hopes vanished; all those people who were earlier proud of my company started stating negative comments on face(not realizing that nothing is permanent and that I could retaliate). That was the time when I came to know who my “true friends” actually were. In a way it was good that everything was clear in front of my eyes but on other hand it felt like I was being hit by a huge hammer by everyone on my chest. It was a perfectly planned and well executed punishment for me. And I learnt a lot by that experience.
Everything has changed since then, I don’t know if I think right but I think that I am lot more serious about my life now and even if I am not, I know that life is anything but a cakewalk. Its much more than what it appears from outside.
Still I deviate from my path many times, still I make a lot of mistakes, trying to learn from each one of them. But the teachings of the past, the entire experience of a big failure in all aspects of life has made me much more cautious about everyone and everything except for the people who helped me out of the trouble exactly when i needed that help. I know that life is far from over and there are much bigger failures and shocks waiting for me around the corner, I have a lot more to face but this time I know whom to consult in the bad times.
Personally if I was asked to advise someone about making friends I would say “don’t make anyone a close friend of yours easily, spend time with them to know them more before putting your trust on them because if they cheat you at a later stage of life, you’ll be more than shattered for trusting the wrong people in the most crucial times of your life.”
Don’t know why but I am feeling much better after putting in this post. It’s on the sad side but I actually made the mistake of choosing wrong people as my friends, I never realized that I was being used as a medium and only when everything ended I got aware of the facts. I hope it never happens with anyone else in the World and that everyone finds at least one true friend in life, whose absence, I’m sure will make life much more than hell.
Have Fun.

P.S.: some friends deserve special mention..i'll give that in a new post later.